Where's the romance in my life? Where is my breathless-heart-pounding-lightheaded-fireworks romance? Where is my I'd-do-anything-for-you moment? Maybe my chunky rolls have swallowed all the moments. Maybe there just isn't anyone who would do anything for me. Maybe I'm not important enough to deserve a drawn bath or candelight dinner or sweet words whispered in my ear. Oh how I miss that. I miss feeling like a teenager, all giddy with a swollen heart. I see it on TV and in movies and I can't get enough of it (maybe I'm making up for the lack of it in my own life?). I know they are just TV shows, but they make me want to burst; it's so sweet and so selfless it makes me want to cry because it's just been so long since anyone stuff like that for me. I mean, Pacey bought Joey a WALL for crying out loud! Spike puts up with so much abuse just so he can be near Buffy. Shue bought a car just to compete with another guy, and he sings and dances! It's just all so sweet and romantic that you almost get butterflies just watching it, especially when there aren't any in your own life. I know, complain, complain, complain, but admit it, everyone wants their Edward Cullen. Everyone wants to hear that they are beautiful and wanted OUTSIDE of the heat of the moment. Everyone wants to be admired for something and I guess I ran out of admirable qualities...
