I want changes. I was big changes in my life. I want to be better. I want to be more responsible. I want to be more patient. I want to teach my children how to be good people, how to see the beautiful things in life. I want to feel secure in my marriage. I want to celebrate some kind of faith. I want to let the selfishness of others roll off my back. I want to be thinner.
I know, I'm asking for a lot here. I want a complete overhaul on my life. I want to be able to make TV less of a priority, but still be able to watch some of the best shows (like Fringe). I want to cook dinner once in a while without my own internal excuses. I want to find the time to keep my house clean, the laundry done and still find time to play ping pong with the kiddies or read a story to them before they go to sleep. I want to have lovely evenings outside with citronella and bags and hamburgers and friends. Not a lot of money spent, but a good time had. I want to get my projects done around the house (the ones that NEED to be done) to give me more time for things I WANT to do. I want to sit and sing on the front porch reading a book next to my husband. I want to dance and jump around with my girls. I want to love life and laugh every single day. I want to grow away from the people who can't appreciate this rather than clinging to them like a lifeline. And if I should cry, I want to feel like a fresh April rain has just washed me clean and made me even more whole. Now is that so much to ask?
On a side note, wander over to this blog. It belong to Shauna. I have two of her books. I know her family. I mean, I'm not intimately acquainted, but I bump into them on occasion. I have the utmost respect for her, for her writing and for the colorful way she lives life. I envy her that.
www.shaunaniequist.com/
